So hi, my name is kit (if u ever saw another name on here ssshhhh no u didn’t). The profile pic is of my cat, posie, and was drawn by a lovely friend of mine, and the background is a picture I took a few years ago.
I reblog a lot of random stuff! Most of it is writing adjacent (research, inspiration etc.) I write middle grade (9-12) fantasy and the occasional horror/surrealist short story, but I love to read pretty much anything and am always down for recs.
I’m also big into les mis and whatever I’m reading/watching atm.
I hope yall enjoy the blog! I want to start putting some non fiction research on here soon so hopefully this will serve as a sorta intro :)))))
at this point i feel like people who insist taylor swift is an indie artist, that she’s queer, that she’s all of these things that she plainly is not as the blandest and most successful and exposed musician on the planet, might as well have magazine cutouts of CEOs and washington lobbyists on their bedroom walls. it’s functionally the same thing
popping in to say that for the past 6 months I’ve used this post as an indicator of when to check the news because it spikes in notes every time there is a major world event
Still watching this youtube channel about what I can only describe as “Dark Classical art” and this one absolutely floored me because I was unaware of it and I want to share it because it changes my perspective on this artist completely.
You might be aware of Louis Wain. If not by name then by his art. He’s the artist behind that series of cat drawings that slowly became more and more abstract and bizarre.
This series of paintings of cats are often labelled as a visual representation of Wain’s deteriorating mental illness and schizophrenia. Even more so often labelled as “a tragic display of a painter’s failing battle with schizophrenia.”
The paintings look like this and were painted around the very early 1900s.
Ok got all that?
So here’s the thing.
Although Wain did suffer from a mental illness that was strong enough for him to be institutionalized, his mental illness was never diagnosed with clear certainty. Although “Schizophrenia” is so heavily applied to him based purely on how his series of paintings LOOK, despite actual specialists widely disputing this. On top of this, although he did paint the kaleidoscope cat portraits during this time, it was not the only things he painted, and he was quite capable of painting “normal” pictures of cats.
The Kaleidoscope Cat portraits are more images of him experimenting with colour and shapes, something the Smithsonian themselves state on their website.
Wain had actually made his entire living painting whimsical images of cats, often for product adverts, before he was incarcerated and was actually a very beloved artist at the time. When his friends learned of his incarceration, they started a collection of donation money to help transfer Wain to the Bethlam Royal Hospital instead, one of the best mental health facilities of the time. Even the Prime Minster of the time donated, and they raised a large amount of money across England to help him.
4 years later, Wain drew this as his final image which he released publicly
I knew all about “the Schizophrenic cat Guy” but he had always been presented to me as some tragic case of an artist going mad and his skills and work unraveling as he went insane.
Which is why I wanted to share this information which was new to me. And because I think it’s important.
This is the final time im going to try making an alternate blog.
two days ago, saturday, may 13th, at around 3am, with almost 4000 followers, my blog, @noellevanious, was deleted. no e-mail, mo warning. 10 years of using the site. presumably gone forever.
i made 3 alt blogs. two of them were literally terminated within seconds of being created.
After lasting one day, @noellevanioustoo, my alt blog, was deleted.
originally i assumed it was just a misunderstanding, maybe an IP ban. i use a VPN, so i can understand a blanket/automated ban. its still absolute garbage, happened to a blog thats been using a vpn for months, including on my cellphone, and constantly swapping wifi between work and home. its fucking stupid, but its better than the other consideration:
somebody on tumblr staff is somehow finding my blogs and deleting them constantly om purpose.
i have two assumptions that i can make right now:
assume it has to do with my vpn, or maybe evem my new phone. if its just a mistake, maybe theyll re-instate me.
the site is purposefully targeting me. it is well known that the staff is, at best, unaware or uninterested with dealing with transphobes and terfs mass reporting trans woman blogs. at worst, there are terfs or transphobes on staff. either way, 11 years of posting here have now vanished, with no way of getting it all back.
why would they target me over other, more outspoken pro-trans users? i dont fucking know.
but, this is where you come in. and id greatly appreciate the help -
i’ve already sent multiple emails to tumblr support. i dont need money, i’m okay financially.
i want you guys to hammerthe fuck out of tumblr support’s email.
send as many emails as you can. i dont care whats in them, so long as “noellevanious” and “deleted without explanation” are included. ask for them to reinstate my blog. ask for an explanation. tumblr support is a joke, and the function barely works, but its the only option i, we, have right now.
why should you do this? putting aside helping a girl out, this is definitely a turning point. theyve deleted multiple other transfem blogs without a word. if they deleted my blog, that is adverse to serious conflict, political or otherwise, and dont reinstate it, i wouldnt be surprised if they start cracking down on other transfem blogs.
until that moment, when a response happens, i dont know what ill do. its entirely possible ill try to post this post and itll fail, and this blog that i have yet to even mention to friends, anybody for that matter, will be gone too (if you see this on another friend’s blog, thats why). i had plans for a few more streams that i may do the next few days, but i wont lie, checking my dash was a big part of my day.
if you wanna reach/follow me in the meantime, @noellevanious on twitter and twitch.tv/noellevanious are where you can find me. i also have a mastodon apparently? @novanious. basically, search “novanious” or “noellevanious” and you’ll find me. for now it’ll probably just be twitter (god help me) and twitch - if youre a fan of White Women Wednesday Wrestling, be sure to tune in sunday night, most likely at 8pm est!
if my blog does eventually get restored, im sure youll see news of it, either from my return to posting or from my friends spreading the word. either way, thanks again for any support, and a big thanks to all my friends that were spreading news of my first burner yesterday. it really means the world to me.